|so i missed the memo
||[Mar. 13th, 2006|12:49 am]
i know how hard i try.
and i wonder...will it pay off?
and if it doesn't, what then?
i've learned alot in the past few days.
things i completely missed before...
that's what i get for being so goddamned preoccupied.
preoccupied with the way they keep me smiling.
the way he keeps me at ease.
my car broke down. school is kicking my ass. i'm gaining more weight. work sucks.
stress level has officially hit the freak out factor.
i'm meg. i don't get stressed. well i USED to not.
gah, why does this have to happen again.
everytime i get myself together and independently thinking again someone has to walk back into my life that i need.
and why did it have to be you?
i guess i'm just afraid of change.