|red red wine
||[Jul. 11th, 2006|03:37 pm]
|||||this modern love-bloc party||]|
i've given up liquor. yes, i know.
it sucks. badstyle.
i've just come to the realization that everything that has ever been good in my life has been fucked up and all sorts of twisted when liquor gets involved. and i always always always end up hating myself the next day. because i don't know when to quit.
i once heard that it's never a problem until you try to quit.
and i never knew how true that is, until now.
it would be so easy and soo wonderful if i could just sit down and have a gin&tonic or a margarita...oooh god i would love a margarita.
but no. not now. not for a VERY LONG TIME.
at least until i learn to be responsible. well, at least more responsible.
and i've had it up to my eyeballs with living at my mom's house...i am dying.
i haven't lived there in almost 2yrs now and it is KILLING me to step foot in their and be forced to live with other people. and not have a space to call my own. i don't even have a fucking bed for christ's sake.
i want my apartment. now.
but i'm poor and jobless (still)
and i haven't been able to get in touch with lela to get plans set on whether or not we are living in an apartment...which i need to figure out.
because i'm not going to commute everyday to campus and back.